Friday, December 5, 2008

You're Ex-boyfriend is Someone else's husband.

During Thanksgiving break I had coffee with an old friend. While talking about the past, of course we went to the topic of boys. Those old loves who cost us many sleepless nights and phone calls to each other, not to mention all the 5 lbs we gained from not getting out of bed and eating nothing bu chocolate and ice cream. As we were talking about how we hate the "new girl" and crying, why her? I realized, my ex lover is someone else's dream man. I know you don't want to admit it, but face it, she is everything you weren't. It hurts, it really freaking sucks too, but that stupid girl that just came in and ruined your fairytale, was making her own fairytale, whore. It was suppose to be you! You had the wedding planned, all you needed was the rock! And though you'll never know why, it's not you, it's her. And we all know how ex-boyfriends operate, they call you. And this is what really screw girls up, "the call." He misses you, he wants to hear your voice, he wants to know he still has you wrapped around his stupid football loving t.v. hogging finger, and even though he's moved on, he needs to know that you haven't. And we fall for it everytime, the minute you get that text you see wedding bells, you think, "he's going to come back to me, he's gonna leave the hooker and come back to me!" No, actually, he's not. He is giong to get his fix on how miserable you are without him and just like the past, he's gone. Youre left with your head spinning with nothing to do but remember that awful break up and how it pretty much just happened all over again. So why do we even pick up the phone, because this happens more than once, and for some of us it happens every 3 weeks, every month etc. We pick up the phone to feel, because to us, that love was real, and even though its gone, when we pick up that phone, its like a time machine, those feelings come back and you are that girl again, the love of his life, but in a matter of minutes, it's over, again.

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