Follow the leader

Many of you probably think I have fallen off the face of the earth, truth is, I pretty much have. You see, I am in charge of my sorority's dance team. Now, if you are not a sorority girl you are probably laughing out loud right now, and I don't blame you. To anyone that is not involved in this "dance competition" you can't understand what it is. Therefore, I will not try to make you understand. The point I am shooting for it that this is my first leadership position. It is the first time that I have been in charge. I make the rules, I call the shots, it is all me. This is has quite the learning experience for me, I have grown a lot in the past few months. My entire life I have been a passive person, a people pleaser. I never was one to speak up or to take charge. This position has pretty much forced me to jump into the driver's seat and take the wheel. At first, it was hard for me to realize that I didn't have to ask permission from anyone, I was in charge. I made all the big decisions. As scary as this has been, I have proved to myself and others that I can do it. I have more than shocked myself in this process. I have learned so much about myself and others that I would otherwise never have. Although, I have learned that it is lonely at the top. When you put yourself in a leadership position, you are putting yourself in the line of fire. While you receive positive feedback, you will also receive negative feedback. My skin is 10 times as think as it was six months ago. One of the biggest lessons I have learned is that there is a solution to every problem, you just have to find it. My entire life, when something has gone wrong I have looked to other people to fix it. Now, when things have gone wrong, everyone is looking at me waiting on me to fix it. At first, this was a terrifying thing. Now I have proved to myself that I can, in fact, solve problems. You have to know that things will not go as planned. You take things as they come, and deal with problems one at a time. Six months ago no one, including myself, thought I was capable of doing this job, six months later, the best reward is knowing that I have done a good job.